Love

People live to love. Thing is most the time we just get hurt. Have you ever loved someone? So much that u think of them everyday. You cant help but blame yourself for losing them. You cant help but think of all the things u could've done to keep them in your life. Sometimes they are still there in your life..but sometimes it hurts more to have them there. You want to curl up in a ball and cry when u see them or even get to talk to them..And you cant even help it. The tears and all the pain comes rushing in like a waterfall. You seem like you gave part of your heart away in hope that maybe just maybe they gave u some of their's. Thats how i feel a lot of times. Sometime im very rude to him so that maybe i cant protect the rest of my heart from crumbling away. I got my life together and am happy but i always feel like there is always something missing. I dont think ill ever get that part of my heart back from him. But life goes on and i will find that guy who i can give the rest of my heart to and he gives me his in exchange. Someone that will be there for me no matter what happens. That Mr. Right that everyone talks about!

The blah day

As I woke this morning to a phone call I knew that would be the setting of my day. I know I shouldve been happy to get that phone call about my college class..but like all the other phone calls all I heard was blah, blah, blah. I went back to bed after that call..When I awoke the second time I still felt this blah feeling. I dont understand this feeling..I havent even started my day yet and I had this feeling. So i pushed past it. I started my college work like any other student would. Still Blah. I sat on facebook to catch up with friends. Still Blah. I even applied for a job. But yet still this blah feeling. So i gave up trying to get rid of it. I lived my blah day just like most my days. Still sitting here I feel this blahness.. its crazy how feeling can set your mood for the day.